I’ll pretend to know what I’m saying.
So that later on I can apologize for having full knowledge of nothing.
All I have known are sad songs despite the bitter pills I’ve swallowed.
I am accustomed to confused tangles like I was cursed in cursive.
I have found the hollow in me and accepted the emptiness it brings.
My time has been a dealer.
I’ve played at the corners where the heartless have been.
Whilst waking up to crusty tears that I nicknamed angel dust.
These sniffles do not end on a high.
The nines I have saved on these stitches just left me on cloud ten.
But no matter how high I have been, I have not felt heaven.
My feet just sizzled with the rage of hot hurt.
And no matter how fast and far I’ve ran.
The stampede is always hot on my heels and ignores the Ferdinand in me.
Maybe I was meant to be a fighter all my life.
A matador at love but that doesn’t matter though.
If I can’t hold up a cape, maybe in these words I can make my escape.
I won’t tell you if it hurts.
My words transport me to your world.
Therein reality has taken up a position in my dream works.
I may be a vein of kindness inside a body of hearts wrapped in the scars of love.
But it is in your heart that I lay my worries.
It is in the reflection of your eyes that I see the person I could be.
As I grab a fistful of your hair, in it I weave tales of love in the future.
I rely on these specks of hope that fall on my soul as rarely as snowflakes in the African tropics.
There is no end to the beginning of my debut dreams of you; And I.
I can’t tell you I will never leave.
Because that’s a 2 sided coin of which I’m not the only one allowed to spend.
I’d rather say I’ll never do anything to make you leave.
Since you’re my world then we can safely assume that the flat world theorists are wrong.
The above were not meant to be flirt words.
It is also not how I would have approached the Big Bang.
I am riding the Milky Way as I choke out my past dark matter.
It is a fight I have endured and will keep at till your soul accepts me to its society.
I aspire for Tensa Zangetsu when the world wants me to stay in my shikai.
There’s beauty in darkness too; when I can rely on your everlasting light.