Woken up by a loud noise.
Confused and grabbing at the blankets.
My internal bullshit alarm has gone off.
I can barely see through my sleepy eyes.
I rub them a bit but it just makes it worse.
Not sure whether last night’s tears made them so red.
Or it’s just the insomnia that has been for the past month.
I am trying to take in my surroundings.
I am feeling lost as nothing seems familiar.
I am all alone in bed.
Sleeping on both pillows.
The curtains now blue and the walls black.
The darkness starts to get to me again.
I can see my finger moving to hit the snooze button.
I am falling asleep again.
Shutting my brain out from reasoning.
Sweet dreams slowly engulf me.
Wake up, wake up, wake up it’s the 1st of the month.
To get up, get up, get up so cash your checks and get up.”
Damn that alarm again!!
I grab at my glasses.
Aha! This is way better.
I can see the cobwebs now creeping around windows.
Trying to shut off all the light.
I am no longer one with the world.
I can’t let this happen.
I have been here before.
And I know all too well what follows.
I know I need to get up.
Put my feet down, shower and step out.
But first I get my phone.
Alarm, options, delete, “Are you sure you want to delete?”, yes”